Shut Up!

Still waiting! 39 weeks and 2 days. I get to see Mr. Doc in about an hour and time is going so slow! I can't wait to see if I have progressed. Going to the doctor is the most exciting thing for pregnant people. I love doctor days I can hardly make it through work! My patience is about shot but I'm trying so hard to keep it together. Each night I get off work and either fall asleep or nest. Then I wait for hubby to get home. When he does I follow him around every room. If I dont see him I ask, "where did you go?" I'm so bored and anxious I'm like a leach! Finally 8:00 PM hits and I settling into my couchly dwelling and drift into sleep to "Sons of Guns or Moonshiners" that B loves to watch. Well last night I got a killer cramp in my leg and woke up in a panic on the couch. B was trying to help and say, "straighten it out," well all I could do was get mad and yell "SHUT UP" ...........Oh my I think this attitude is getting the best of me. He is always just trying to help and knows the right thing to do! And me, what a beast! I didn't feel bad until this morning, and apologized to him right away.  I hope I'm not too mean  or unleash this crazy beast inside of me while in labor! I guess we'll see....but for now I can say to myself shut up and quit being a beast!

Practicing Patience

Tomorrow will be the 3•Niner! 39 weeks pregs and still no baby! To say the least I am very anxious and my fears of labor have fully vanished, so here I wait and wonder, "will today be the BIG D day?" I can hardly sit in this anxious room at work and definitely can't concentrate on aviation listings or ad changes. Honestly I daydream, thinking: "what if my water breaks walking to the printer, in front of all these coworkers" or what if: "it breaks while sitting in my chair and the guys around me can hear me peeing my amniotic fluid onto the floor"....honestly... I could care less I think I would jump up and just run out of this place. I'm that ready to have this baby. I will endure any pain, any embarrassment, really whatever it takes at this point! I think that is why God makes you wait 9 months because that last month honestly prepares you physically and mentally to go through whatever!

My latest challenge has been the belly comments. Or that I look so big I'm gonna have this 8, 9, 10 lb giant child. Really why do people think that, I'm full term, almost 40 wks pregnant, almost maxed out..... I'm supposed to look huge and my belly should most definitely be large & round. I have a life size child in there! I want a big ole healthy bundle of joy! All the more cheeks to kiss and rolls to cuddle! Really that is all we care about, people are always judging the outside, and what things appear to be. All that counts is what's on the inside! I guess one more lesson to teach and preach to little bubba bee!

So as I sit anxiously and wait and wait and wait. I have decided to change my mentality and anxiousness. I have no control over what is going to happen or when its going to happen, so I should use this time to practice my patience. I'm going to stop looking at today at tomorrow and obsessing on due dates, time lines, convenience. I need to just live right now and be thankfully my baby is still thriving in my womb! Safely in there with me all the time, I can feel its every movement, I need to cherish this feeling, for this too will pass. Time goes so quickly anyway..... He/She will come when ready and my body will know when that time has come. So for now, I will continue to prepare, enjoy my last days being pregnant, be lazy, waddle around, admire my belly...and just wait to meet my little honey and just live in the moment! Its helping me practice the much needed patience I will need the many years ahead as a parent!

“The most important thing she'd learned over the years was that there was no way to be a perfect mother and a million ways to be a good one“

Tick Tock Tick Tock!!

Tick Tock Tick Tock.....Its been 38.5 wks that I have been pregnant carrying my first baby. That long...really?! Isn't it crazy to think, I have been creating a human life inside me? Its really so amazing & such a miracle.... ! Some days I can say I think to myself, "what have I done today, what did I accomplish".... I can truly say..."I created a home for my child to grow, a lung for him or her to breathe, a beating heart, a little hand to hold, a beautiful smile to kiss!" I wanted to write a little letter to my baby to wish him or her well into this world. It's a scary place but fear not baby wilson, I am here to greet you with open arms today, tomorrow, and forever!!

Dear Baby -
Here we are just weeks or possibly days away from meeting each other for the 1st time. I have thought about you for months, pictured you in my mind, looked into the future, laughed, and cried for hopes and fears for you. I'm patiently awaiting your arrival into this wonderful world. I already love you more than anything, you already make me so proud, you already have stolen my heart forever! I pray for you everyday and will see to it you always stay safe, loved, and protected. I am here to greet you with open arms today, tomorrow, and forever!!
See you very soon my dear child! 
All my Love - Mommy!

Ring Around My Fat Finger

Well this morning I officially left my ring to rest. My fingers are little fat pigs! My ring finger was so swollen and I pushed and tugged and tried so hard to get it to fit grunting away like I was already in labor at 6:45 AM. Until my husband said in his sleeping slumber, "Karla don't force it on." He was still in bed and could see my efforts with one eye open. I listened to his advice as always and left it in its pretty red box. I miss it so much today! The only good thing is I don't have to squeeze it off to put lotion on anymore at work. So my hands are extra moisturized today, I guess I'm making the most of this fat finger syndrome, life could be worse! Tomorrow will mark my 34 week mark, leaving only 6 weeks give/take before baby bee gets here!

I need to make some lists & goals to get myself feeling better about being ready for this big day:
• Baby necessities
• Mommy necessities
• Put car seat in car
• Put together pack n play bassenet
• Clean the house
• Pack hospital bag
• Plan a date night

Lil Honeybees

This is my first blog post. I was inspired by a couple friends, and love to journal so what better way to document my journey as a mother to be and wife. I titled my blog, "My Lil Honeybees" because I love to use that in reference to regards to anything I love that is adorable, cute, and sweet! A large part of that sweetness I owe to my loving and wonderful husband "B"and our lil honeybee on the way. We can't wait to start the next journey of our life as parents. We are due with our first baby in 7 weeks. I feel it has brought our relationship to a different level of love, respect, and commitment. I see his excitement for this new baby and it makes my heart smile. The journey so far has been incredible and I have loved every second of being pregnant. I'm 33 weeks along and we are waiting to find out the sex. Everyday I get more and more ready to meet our lil honeybee and hold him/her for the first time and see the precious little face we created. The miracle of life is so amazing and I can't wait to learn what its like to become a mother.