Write. When. It. hurts.

I’ve been MIA from Evening table. This week was a revelation of why I have distanced myself from writing. I actually have been journaling independently instead of publicly writing as it’s been a tough few months. I’ve been in silence with my own words and feelings. I’ve been locked in solitude and closure through counsel in my white pages and black pen. Have you tried to Journal before? Its a great release, please try this if you find the time. I wanted to forget about evening table for a while to heal. This week I ran into my friend who helped design my blogger business cards and logo. She asked how evening table was going. I said, “Forgive me I haven’t been writing. I haven’t logged into my account for 3 months. I’m just too busy.” That was a lie. Because every week I try to find the courage to write and I can not bring myself to it. Part of my blog vision is to always write about something my readers can relate to. That they can connect to and take away to make their life better or easier. Well the last months; I've gotten more views to my page, random likes to my Facebook, people are still reading my blog and visiting frequently. It’s been a constant reminder that evening table was still something worth reading. But I haven’t written because I have been locked in a place of silence. Because the one thing that has been constant on my mind, I haven't been ready to write about.  Then last Friday driving to work I listened to the radio and a blogger was talking about her books, her blog, and that the most inspiring written documents are those that touch others. The ones that dig in deep, that link people to experiences and touch their soul. The stories that connect people in a way that brings them peace; where in times of sorrow they can gravitate to a happier place, and find faith and hope. The writer on the radio said, “Write when it hurts.” It pierced me; and that was it; "my revelation". The moment that brought tears to my eyes, the moment God told me, I needed to write, because people still think its worth the read, and if it touches one person then I accomplished my goal here.

So today I will get out my pen, and write my story..................and hopefully touch one person or many.......

We found out this fall we were pregnant with our 3^rd child, we were overjoyed with excitement to add to our family another baby. It was such a blessing as it was right after my grandmother Ludy Birkel passed away. It was a joy in a sadden time of loss and grief. It gave me comfort to think my grandmother was the first to learn of my baby, even before I knew my child existed. The due date was July 9^th; our 5^th wedding anniversary. What an amazing blessing, we were so happy. On November 22^nd I started to miscarry. We lost our precious angel baby on November 25^th. It was truly devastating and heart wrenching pain, I have never felt. I didn’t know such love or pain existed. The loss of a child no matter how long you carry that baby; you have a piece of your heart removed forever. And I truly mean that, its been a journey. Grief is a journey, I'm doing ok, I tell you I am doing good. But I will never get over this; it remains constant in my mind.  I will never forget my sweet baby angel; we named her; Millie Faith Wilson. She will always have a place in our heart forever and I look forward to our reunion someday. My faith has carried me through this struggle and I trust in God's plan.

Here is a beautiful prayer by Mother M Angelica; it has given me profound comfort.

In Loving Memory of Millie Faith and All the Other Babies taken too Soon!!

"You see, the child lives. Instead of the wind she hears the sound of angels singing before My throne. Instead of the beauty that passes she sees everlasting Beauty. She sees My face. She was created and lived a short time so the image of her parents imprinted on her face may stand before Me as their personal intercessor. She knows secrets of heaven unknown to men on earth. She laughs with a special joy that only the innocent possess. My ways are not the ways of man. I create for My Kingdom and each creature fills a place in that Kingdom that could not be filled by another. She was created for My joy and her parents’ merits. She has never seen pain or sin. She has never felt hunger or pain. I breathed a soul into a seed, made it grow and called it forth.”

 

 

 

Hello Again

Hi Friends!

 

I'm so sorry I haven't wrote in a while. First off, I forgot my password to my account & Secondly, I’m blaming it on the fact I was transitioning into a new job. Which is super awesome and exciting! A great opportunity landed on my lap. I’m back in insurance utilizing my insurance broker license, and with my expertise in health care senior venue I’m dabbling in the world of Individual Health plans along with Medicare. Fun stuff!! Really it is, I mean that too, it’s something we all need and I feel I can help people maneuver a really perplexing market. November 1^st is open enrollment, give me a shout out if you need some help. I’m not telling you that to sell you. But I wanted to share that we all can make changes in our lives that lead us to our goals. But you have to examine your goals and where you are at. Where are you going? Where do you want to go? How do you get there? You have to make a list of career goals and go out and find the path that matches those goals. Take a strength finder test (I just took Strength Finder 2.0 by Gallup, thanks to my new company Unico), it will help you to understand your skill set and what areas you excel. Once you read it, you are like, duh? I knew that. And then from there you continue to build on those strengths and key traits. And always, to help others grow to be the best they can be as well. Hope it inspired you friends, now go out there and seize the world.  

Now onto the meal plans!

I do not have a beautiful menu this week, but this is what I made:

Sunday – Oven Baked Chicken and Carrots

Monday – Tator Tot Casserole

Tuesday – Arby’s family Drive through (we got rear ended in the drive - thru line, really damn people texting and driving! She said her car jolted when she put it in park.)

Wednesday – This was an amazing new recipe I tried, I was craving some German Brats, Kraut, and Dumplings.

http://allrecipes.com/recipe/228406/beer-glazed-brats-and-sauerkraut/ 

Tonight we are having left overs!!

 

Have a great night folks. Promise I will write again so

Back to School

 

Its hard to believe its back to school time! Its such an exciting time for kids to start a new year. But for moms & dads can bring about hectic lifestyle changes, what a better week to plan ahead and relieve some stress. I put together a menu for you to make your week easier! Hope you all had a great summer filled with memories! Enjoy Friends!

Dinner Plans

Sunday – Pizza Burgers with Zucchini and Squash on the grill.

Monday – Cavatini and Sweet Corn

Tuesday – Rice Bowls

Wednesday – BLT’s with Sweet Potato Fries

Thursday – Left Overs

Friday – Favorite Take Out

Saturday – Pizza Muffins, Veggie Bag & Watermelon Picnic outside.

Grocery List

·         2 Ibs Ground Beef

·         Pepperoni

·         Bacon

·         Pizza Sauce

·         Spaghetti Sauce

·         Zucchini

·         Squash

·         Sweet Corn

·         Lettuce

·         Tomato

·         Onion

·         Garlic

·         Watermelon

·         Moz Cheese

·         Provolone Sliced Cheese

·         Hamburger Buns

·         English Muffins

·         Bread for BLT’s

·         Noodles (favorite for cavatina I usually use macaroni and rigatoni)

·         Bag of Frozen green and red peppers

·         Frozen Sweet Potato Fries

·         Frozen Pepper Jacks Steak Meat

·         Favorite Steamer Bag of Veggies

·         Can of black beans

·         Rice

·         Salsa

·         Ranch

  

RECIPES

Sunday – Pizza Burgers with Zucchini and Squash on the grill

Prep your ground beef for burgers on the grill. Slice up the zucchini and squash put in foil with oil and salt and pepper. Grill burgers and veggies. Last few minutes on grill melt provolone cheese & few pepperoni’s on burgers along with the buns to toast them. Once complete top the burger with some pizza sauce.  

Tuesday – Cavatini and Sweet Corn   

Spaghetti Sauce

                Cavatini noodles

                Ground Beef

                Pepperoni

                Onion/Garlic

                Moz Cheese

                Sweet Corn

Brown your meat. Boil noodles. When the noodles are complete dish them out and leave the water to use for the corn. Prep Corn and put in water. Preheat oven 350. Once meat is done, saute onion and garlic. Add the sauce to the meat, onion, and garlic mix it up. Once the noodles are done. Throw everything into a casserole dish. Top with Moz cheese and put in oven for 30 mins or so.

 Tuesday – Rice Bowls   

Philly Meat

                Frozen Pepper Veggies

                Rice

                Salsa

                Ranch

Heat the 2 philly meat as directed on package. Put frozen veggies in and simmer until done. Prepare your rice. Serve philly meat and veggie over bed of rice, compliment with salsa and ranch!!

Wednesday – BLT’S & Sweet Potato Fries

            Preheat Oven for Fries and get those ready before you start the bacon. Then turn skillet on medium heat add your strips of bacon (3 minutes on each side, you will notice when brown, I like to overcook mine so it’s nice and crunchy). As bacon gets done put on plate topped with paper towels to drain grease. Slice the tomato, clean your lettuce. Once bacon is almost finished, start to toast your bread. Top bread with mayo, tomato, lettuce then add your bacon. Cut in half.

Friday – Its your night off, order take out or have your hubby prepare dinner!!

Saturday – Pizza Muffins & Veggies

            English Muffins

            Pizza Sauce

            Moz Cheese   

            Pepperoni

This is super super easy and fun for the kids. Make sure all muffins are sliced. You will make these just like pizza. So top the muffin with pizza sauce, then cheese and top with pepperonis. Broil in the oven on low for only a few minutes you can watch until the cheese is melted and bread is toasted. My kids loved it. I threw a steamer bag in the mic, then sliced up some watermelon and we had a picnic outside!

Adversity

I haven't wrote in a couple weeks, I'm trying to find balance. I decided I was going to focus on my family and take a couple weeks off Evening Table. The summers always seem to come with events, activities, and everyday craziness. Sometimes you just need to take a break and focus on the things that help you cope. I wanted to talk about adversity. This week a friend shared with me she was diagnosed with an unknown disease there is no cure for. Another friend of mine was at fear that she may lose her job. A friend who's recently been divorced for 3 years just found out her ex-husband is remarrying. We've all been here, faced with adversity and the anxiety that comes with the unknown path ahead of us. I heard once from a speech from Tom Osborne when people are faced with changes they do one of three things; Quit, Blame, & Opportunity.  He led to tell the story about a man who lived over 150 years ago. This man had an unfortunate early life, his wife died and he laid depressed bed ridden for months. Later he decided to get up and start a business. His business failed. So he decided to become a politician. He failed and lost time and time again. He tried 8 times and was about to give up, but he gave it another try. He then became president of the United States, his name was Abraham Lincoln. He didn't quit, he didn't blame others, he took all his downfalls and used them as an opportunity to keep growing! Look how he changed the world. How are you going to strive to overcome life's adversities you are faced with?

Weekly Dinner Plans

Sunday – Steak & Potatoes

Monday – Buffalo Chicken Sliders  & Curly Fries

Tuesday – Chicken Alfredo w/ Sun Dried Tomatoes & Salad 

Wednesday –   Brats & Beans

Thursday – Left Overs

Friday – Take Out

Saturday – Burgers & Zucchini  

Grocery List

Check your cabinets for ingredients you may already have!

·         1 lbs Ground Beef

·         1 bag frozen Tyson shredded Chicken

·         Curly Fries

·         Steaks

·         Brats

·         2 Zucchini 

·         Lettuce

·         Potatoes

·         Alfredo Sauce

·         Jar of Sun Dried Tomatoes

·         Linguine Noodles

·         Franks Hot Sauce

·         Ranch packet

·         Buns (bakery isle)

·         Provolone Cheese Sliced (1/2 lb in deli isle)

RECIPES

Sunday – Steak & Potato’s    

Marinade your steaks on Saturday. Diced some potatoes put in foil with butter, salt, pepper, & parmesan cheese. Grill potatoes and steaks on grill.

Monday – Buffalo Chicken Sliders with Curly Fries 

½ bag of Tyson frozen shredded chicken

1 packet of ranch seasoning

            1 cup of franks hot sauce

In skillet heat the chicken, add the remaining ingredients. Layer the meat on buns with lettuce. .

           

 Tuesday – Chicken Alfredo w/ sun dried tomatoes & Salad

½ Bag of Tyson Frozen shredded Chicken

                1 jar Alfredo Sauce

                1 jar of sun dried tomatoes

                Linguine Pasta

                1 bag frozen broccoli

                Basil, Salt, Pepper

Heat chicken as directed on bag. Boil Linguine Pasta as directed. Add Sauce to Chicken. Season Sauce with basil, salt and pepper & add the jar of sun dried tomatoes. Strain noodles when complete and dinner should be ready!

Wednesday – Brats and Beans

Throw your favorite brats on the grill. Heat some pork n beans in the microwave, easy dinner night!

      

Thursday – Left Over’s Night

You should have plenty of left overs to feast and eat up what you have in your fridge.

Friday – TAKE OUT

Saturday – Burgers & Zucchini   

Thaw 1 Ibs hamburger

                Zucchini

                Onion

                Butter, olive oil, salt, pepper

Make hamburger patties with salt and pepper, add some A1 sauce for some kick. Dice up your onion and put on foil with butter, oil, salt and pepper and fold together so it can steam on the grill. Slice the zucchini, & do the same with zucchini. Throw everything on grill. Top with sliced cheese

 

Country

It truly feels like summer, we spent the weekend back at the Wilson Ranch. The boys hunted for snakes and toads. We walked through tall grasses to get to the barn to pet and feed the horses. We even got to pick ripe cherries from an old cherry tree. It brought back memories from my childhood and I hope my boys will someday feel the same. My husband and I got a night out while the grandparents watched the boys. We rode tripped to a small town street dance, we rolled the windows down and you could smell the corn in the air. I just love that and of course a night out with my man! Something about small towns and the country just melts my heart. What a beautiful country we live in, hope you all appreciate our celebratory day of Independence!!

Weekly Dinner Plans

Monday – Cajun Stew in Crock

Tuesday –Skillet Lasagna & Green Beans

Wednesday – Pizza Wraps with Celery

Thursday – Left Overs

Friday – Enchiladas

Saturday – DATE NIGHT or TAKE OUT

Sunday – Grilled Favorite (Pork Chops & Sweet Corn for us!)

Grocery List

Check your cabinets for ingredients you may already have!

·         Kielbasa Ring

·         2 lbs Ground Beef

·         Pork Chops

·         Celery

·         Red Onion

·         Sweet Corn

·         1 Green Pepper

·         Tomato

·         Lettuce

·         1 Large Can Diced Tomato’s

·         1 Can Chicken Stock

·         2 cans Marinara Sauce

·         Bag of Pepperoni

·         Soft Tortilla

·         String Cheese Moz Cheese

·         Shredded Moz Cheese

·         Shredded Mex Cheese

·         Cottage Cheese

·         Cream Cheese

·         Lg Can Enchilada Sauce

·         Green Chilies

·         1 can refried beans

·         Black olives chopped

RECIPES

Monday – Cajun Stew in the Crock

 

             Diced Ring Sausage       

Large can of diced tomatoes

            Onion Chopped

            Bell Pepper Chopped

            1 Stalk Celery Chopped

            1 garlic clove

            1 cup chicken stock

            Add tsp of these spices: oregano, Cajun, bay leaf, thyme

1/2 tsp (or more!) of hot sauce

Add everything to the crockpot except 2 Cups Rice. Cover cook 8 hrs low. When ready to eat cook up the rice quick! If you want to use the juices from the crock to make the rice that would add flavor.

                     

 Tuesday – Skillet Lasagna

 

2 lb ground beef

                ¼ onion chopped

                Marinara sauce

                1 pt Cottage Cheese

                3 cups lasagna noodles broken up          

                1 T. Basil & oregano

                2 C Moz Cheese

Brown all the ground beef meat and onion then drain. (Save half meat for other week meals.)Add remaining ingredients except cheese. Then break up noodles add & Cover tight for 30 minutes. Sprinkle cheese last 15 minutes to melt.

               

Wednesday – Pizza Wraps

 

            Tortillas

            Sliced Tomato

            Marinara sauce

            Pepperoni

            Use Half of ground beef (save the rest for Friday meal)

            Cut up the string cheese into small pieces

Layer on the tortilla like pizza, roll, heat & press on skillet. Serve with side salad

         

Thursday – Left Over’s Night

You should have plenty of left overs to feast and eat up what you have in your fridge.

Friday – Stacked Enchiladas in crockpot

 

            Tortillas

            Ground Beef (left over)

            1 large can enchilada sauce

            1 tsp cumin

            1 ½ C. Cream Cheese

            1 can green chilies

            1 onion chopped

            2 C shredded Cheese

            1 can refried beans

            1 can black olives

Mix meat, cumin, cream cheese, green chilies, and onion. Spray inside of crock. Pour a little sauce. Place tortillas in the bottom of the pot. Spread the beans on the tortillas. Cover with meat mixture. Pour some sauce. Sprinkle cheese. Add another layer. Top with tortilla, remaining sauce and cheese. Cook on high for 4 hrs. When done can sprinkle more cheese and black olives.

           

Saturday – Happy 4^th of July!!!

 

Grilled Favorite! Party Cook out!! Hope everyone has a happy and safe 4^th of July!!

 

Sunday – Order Out!!!